Words of Wisdom 1
A friend said, “There can’t be a testimony without a test.” She heard that in a church group she attended. I have often asked difficult questions like, ” Why am I being tested?” and “Why am I paying for others’ mistakes?” and “When does it get better?” I think I might have told you before, don’t ask “why?” because there is not a satisfying answer to that question and the only answer to “when?” is….time. And that’s not so satisfying, either.
Everyone searches for THE answer to it all. As I was searching through a drawer last week, I found a note that my ex-husband had written to me: “I Love You! Hang on to dear life!” It was written on the back of a card I had written a Bible verse on. I had never seen that note before. And the message was well received….he did love me at one time, and he can still be an inspiration for me. Seeing that note reminded me that I will always care about him in some way and my relationship with him was not wasted time.
As for my test and the testimony it creates….well, I wouldn’t recommend this road to my worst enemy. However, I have learned how to love myself and I apply that same love to my children, now. My priorities are different and there is light at the end of what was a very dark tunnel. When I stumble upon THE answer, you will be the first to know.